welcome to my world...a true journal entry...

Okay--I have more than one reader. That's very cool. It makes me feel the need to post more often for you folks. Actually, it's interesting, because one of you I know--at least one other is a complete stranger. Welcome to my life...I think. SO...here is a question...pertaining to previous posts somewhat: whatever happened to honesty? I make a conscientious attempt to not treat ANYONE like shit. And still the same cannot be said for my former friends or lovers or place-label-heres. I'm a fabulous human. I'm someone you want on your side. One of the best people in the world to claim as "having my back." And still--I deal with shit all the time. I've grown better at not tolerating it. At dumping people out of my life sooner who attempt to take advantage of my giving nature, or who don't treat me with the same respect and understanding with which I treat them. Still...there is a definite lack of equalibrium in my relationships. I seem to always be the one holding the short straw. It pisses me off more and more all the time. I don't believe in rules. I wouldn't want a guy who tolerates a woman treating him like shit, and I don't want to ever be a woman who tolerates a man treating her like shit. On a platonic level, I have recently had to let go of a best friend who wasn't treating me to anything but silence. There comes a time for virtually all relationships to die...it's painful, but sometimes it is for the best. I'm rambling, so...post whatever you like. I'll try to start writing every day--in the true nature of a journal. Just you wait--sometimes I'm a genius, and sometimes I'm just as lost, confused, scared and crazy as everyone else...